I've tried so hard at times to make peace to all the things that has happened. Sometimes it does make me feel helpless. As much I wanted to run and be free from it all, I fall hard on the ground and each time, it breaks my every muscles that used to make me stay tall. My heart is week and it is always within my knowing. Sometimes having ignorance around does helps me to makes it all better then to feel the coldness of the night.
I was not made to live a life that is so perfect. Free from troubles and human emotions. With flaws everyone can see, I feel the need to covers my nakedness even though i knew it would be impossible when I myself having it displayed openly for the amusement of the spectators. I am an actress in need of attention. The real me is always in a bubbles. Too naive for the real harsh world out there. The need to wear a mask to protect myself. I am constantly afraid of the unseen threats, lurking in every corner. The pressure is too much. Day by day these protection layers have becoming more fragile then ever. Sooner or later I guarantee it will pops and washed into the sea. Drifting to the unknown land. I've tried to harden my heart and make promises to myself that I shall never shred any more new tears. But alas, my passion is too bright. It is too fiery to be tame. I, once again felt into the gaze of a warm heart. You who knows most of me. You, who stand still there patiently. Oddly it makes me wonders. Oddly it makes me questions. Oddly it does makes me feel glad somehow. You are my friends and you are my family. You are my sun during the day and stars guiding me into the night. I am not made perfect. With flaws for everyone to see. I can't build fortresses and I can't play games. I am defenceless but i must have faith in my destiny. I'll pray that i will always be content with what's in from of me and what has past. Wish me luck and wish me happiness and my wishes goes to you too...
I was not made to live a life that is so perfect. Free from troubles and human emotions. With flaws everyone can see, I feel the need to covers my nakedness even though i knew it would be impossible when I myself having it displayed openly for the amusement of the spectators. I am an actress in need of attention. The real me is always in a bubbles. Too naive for the real harsh world out there. The need to wear a mask to protect myself. I am constantly afraid of the unseen threats, lurking in every corner. The pressure is too much. Day by day these protection layers have becoming more fragile then ever. Sooner or later I guarantee it will pops and washed into the sea. Drifting to the unknown land. I've tried to harden my heart and make promises to myself that I shall never shred any more new tears. But alas, my passion is too bright. It is too fiery to be tame. I, once again felt into the gaze of a warm heart. You who knows most of me. You, who stand still there patiently. Oddly it makes me wonders. Oddly it makes me questions. Oddly it does makes me feel glad somehow. You are my friends and you are my family. You are my sun during the day and stars guiding me into the night. I am not made perfect. With flaws for everyone to see. I can't build fortresses and I can't play games. I am defenceless but i must have faith in my destiny. I'll pray that i will always be content with what's in from of me and what has past. Wish me luck and wish me happiness and my wishes goes to you too...
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